Coping

Today has been hard so far.... And I don't mean that in a debilitating depressed and down way... My whole life I have been driven by desires. Wether that desire was a new guitar.. A ticket to the next big show.. A new record. Whatever.. Monetary... That's what it always was.. And If I didn't get it I was sad...

I think as men we are driven by our wants . A sense of immediate gratification is much more appealing than a hunt through a dense jungle in search of your prize.

So when your desires change from something monetary to something that brings with it astounding emotional attachment... How do you cope?

this has been the most maturing period in my life... And as a man I never knew I could hurt so bad over something like this. 

"Sad" that's word I used at the beginning of this post.. And though sorrow is a huge part of what I'm feeling.. "Sad" just doesn't seem to sum it up.

My heart aches... I long to be a father...

-DanRo